When a wee nugget is tired of Govanhill he is tired of life, so said Johnson, Tracy Johnson, mad Tracy who torched her flat that time, or it might have been Rab, Rab Johnson, Rab fae Torrisdale Street. You don’t know and you don’t care but you’re tired of this place like you’re tired of your own stupid face.
You know it too well and it too knows you.
There must be less to the world than this place. Somewhere out there, away from here, where it’s all happening, the always faces on these always streets, pavements dulled by tired vision, scenes seen, others needed.
Our familiar music of tenement trauma, bladed weapons, lived experience of tonic wine, amphetamine sulphate, toenails caked with dirt.
The paedophile in the next close, the neds at the bus stop, alcoholic teachers.
The past is such a magical place.
There must be fresh locations, other tenements without the old school hits of living in this place, the big tunes from yesteryear back in the day which give all things meaning in this world.
A place of fewer rats, pointless pot plants, white white cinnamon buns.
City road like any city, dark city with a long past and black eyes, drunk men and football violence.
All cities in every place, overcrowding, relentless stress and pain.
So you go to bed and dream of a place, a new metropolis, enigmatic Mitteleuropa of church doorways in the medieval quarter, elm trees in your cobbled street, a shoemaker, a bistro, rubber plants curling along wood-panelled walls.
But when you wake the next morning you’re still in this place, the same place, and you lie in your bed and try to remember your dreams.
Pictures, sounds, impossibilities running through your head.
City of decay, vermin rodents and austerity politics.
City of neglect, open bin bags and racialised rubbish.
Knee-high weeds in every city park.
You must have dreamed about that too.
Your eyes may be open but that doesn’t mean you’re awake.
Keep it light Govanhill.
Custard creams and bourbon creams.
Cheers.